সেদিন ... আমি

ভোর চারটে ... সাড়ে চারটে ...

এখন আমার আর কোনো অসুখ নেই

Aami fire esechi amar ei nongra ghor-e .. Sakale uthe duto katha mone holo.. ek ..ekhon theke kothao tarikh likhle '10 likhte hobe mone kore .. dui ... Aamar anek anek kaj .. Tahole? Na tahole kichu nay he bishwachorachor .. Kalam amake aaj sango debe na ..ebong tai bolchi bhay paben na .. aami likhte boschi na .. Ta chhara, apni janen amar ekhon ar kono asukh nei .. Chinhomatro-o na.. Samasto songkromon bandho .. aami nischinto hoye jai, shanto hoye jai aste aste .. ar birbir kori na .. ar mathar modhye jot pakay na anek tufan .. Jibonbhor mrityujapon theke egochhi bishwash-er dike .. bodh-er dike .. aamar ei muhurte tai ar sei onischoyota nei .. sada pata-r samne jara dehoheen pret-er mato ghurte thake shabdo khujbe bole .. amar padochinho ekhon ar dikbhul kore na .. aami pouchhe jachhi seikhane jekhane samasto premomugdho songlap theme jay, pore thake sudhu ghumanto chokher patay ajasro chumbon.. ar takhono amar ojante ei mrito sabhyotar upor diye amar sab lekha micchil kore chole .. hnati hnati pa pa .. tader mukhe chokhe kothao klanti nei ..

সব চরিত্র কাল্পনিক নয় ... (শেষ দৃশ্য, শেষ অঙ্ক, হয়ত আমার শেষ নাটক )

                  

 (শাশ্বত দু হাঁটু দু হাত দিয়ে মুড়ে Centre Stage-e বসে আছে ... Backdrop-এ সমুদ্রের আওয়াজ... )

শাশ্বতঃ   সমুদ্দুর ... সমুদ্দুর ... আমার ঘর ভর্তি কিরকম সমুদ্রের জল ,না? অ্যাই,অ্যাই ... Stop .. Stop .. আমায় না, আমায় টাচ করবি না ... হ্যাট, হ্যাট ... হুরররর ... আর ভেজাস না আমায় ... এই খোলস টা, এই খোলস টা ছাড়তে পারবো না, না?

 (হাসির আওয়াজ ... আস্তে আস্তে সেটা যেন আটকে আসছে,কান্না কান্না শোনাচ্ছে যেন )

এই মন খারাপ, এই ডিপ্রেশান ... এই সবকিছু ভেঙ্গেচুরে তলিয়ে যাচ্ছে , খুব মানায় না আমাকে? খুব মানায় ... 'হিট' , না? অ্যায শাহরুখ খান ... হাঃ হাঃ ...

অ্যাই অ্যাই হাসছেন কেন? হাসছেন কেন হ্যাঁ? কত কষ্ট করে একটা Climax বানিয়ে তুলছি , হাসছেন? ছিঃ !

 (এবার Magic-এর ভঙ্গি, পকেট থেকে একটা কয়েন বের করবে ...  দর্শক দের দিকে দেখিয়ে ... )

Head I win .. Tail I lose .. Head I win .. Tail I lose ... Head I win ... Tail ...

(কয়েন টা আকাশে ছুঁড়বে , শুন্যে ঘুরতে ঘুরতে হাতে এসে পড়লেই মুঠো বন্ধ করে হাতটা পকেটে ... নিজেও দেখবে না !)

হাঃ হাঃ হাঃ হাঃ ... (হাসতে হাসতেই যেন কান পেতে কি একটা শুনবে ... ভালো করে শোনার চেষ্টা করছে যেন ... Stage-এর একদিকে এগিয়ে গিয়ে ... )

ওই ... ওই যে মিছিলটা ... আবার, আবার বেরিয়েছে ... লাশের মিছিল ... (মিছিলের দিকে তাকিয়ে চিৎকার করবে ... )

আ ... আমি আছি ... মিছিলে আমিও আছিইই ...

নিলো না ... ওরাও আমায় নিলো না ... ঝিনুক ... ঝি-নুক ... ঝিনুক ... (দীর্ঘশ্বাস)

নেই ... নেই ... নেই ...

(হঠাৎ খেপে উঠে স্টেজের সামনে দৌড়ে যাবে ... উপরে তাকিয়ে ... )

শালা ! খুব বাতেলা মেরেছিলে না? কোথায়?কোথায়? ... কোথায় হ্যাঁ? ...

এই যে জীবনটা ফুরিয়ে যাচ্ছে ... একবার ভাবো ... কেমন করে ধোয়া যায়, এক জন্মের এত দুঃখ? এত পাপ? ...

This is the way the World ends ...

This is the way the World ends ..

This is the way the World ends ... 

Not with a bang, but a whimper ... 

(একটা দেশলাই বাক্স হাতে থাকবে ... একটা একটা করে কাঠি জ্বলতে জ্বলতে বলতে হবে এই কথাগুলো ... )

Shudhu Ghum ..

Ushnotar abaroner niche, bhalobasa jakhan

          gole gole ghum hoye name e shahore ..

Aaro ekbar madari-r khela sesh kore,

         Canvas-e bose kori gonen Ring-Master ...

Aspashto hoye aase samasto jwar,

      Aamrao sere uthte thaki, bishad sindhu paar hoye

Nishedh o Ichhe haat dhore hnatte thake

       Hnattei thake .. Mrityuder pash katiye ..

  Aloukik debjane takhan

        prachur bhir, kolahol .... Mela bose jaay

udbastu sob byartho ponkti-r ..

        (Jar kayekta aamra likhte chai ni konodin ..)

Tabuo, sesh drishye sei sob chhapiye

            shudhu ekti dirgha-shwasher awaz shona jay,

Nandini-r mrito chokhe

             neme aase ghum ... shudhu ghum ...

পুরোনো কবিতা

১

শব্দের হাত ধরে ছিলো
      একমুঠো নির্বাক প্রেম,
আঙুলের ঘুমের ভিতর
       এলোমেলো কথা ছিলো খুব ...


আলগোছে শেষ করা রাস্তায়
    লেগে ছিলো অবুঝ বিকেল
বুড়িগাঙ-ও চুপ করে ছিলো
     হাওয়ার সে জানতো খবর ...


এ শহরে নির্জন ছিলো
   রঙ থেকে খুঁজে নেওয়া রঙ


এ শহরে নির্জন ছিলো
  রঙ থেকে মুছে গেলো রঙ ...


                                               
২

দিনটা গড়িয়ে বিকেলের হাত ধরতেই,
দূরের আ্লো হাতছানি দিলো ওদের ...
উষ্ণতা ভাগ  করে নিচ্ছে ওরা,
                ওই দেখো ...

অন্ধকার তার সবটুকু রহস্য নিয়ে
থমকে যাচ্ছে নদীর জলে,
হারিয়ে যাচ্ছে ওদের চোখে,
আলো খুঁজে পাবে বলে,

কে বলবে ওরা নাকি এ শহরের
সবথেকে হতভাগ্য দুজন ...


  
                   

Purono chithi

Anek anek din aage aami amar bandhuke ei mail ta korechhilum..  Hubahu tule dilam ..

Ekta chhotto koifiyot darkari, aamar sei elvish friend-er kache jar lekha tar ajante aami nijer tar sathe melachhi ...

Bachhar duyek aageo Sharodiya sankhya-y dekhtam bikhyato lok-der ekantoi byaktigato chithi patro anekdin pore tader bhakto ra churi-chamari kore chhepe dey ar bole "agranthito, aprakashito" chithi .. tate dosh hay na ..

Bikhyato haoa ta holo na.. amar chithi chapati jhnapbe emon bhakto amar konodin chhilo na .. Aaj ekta Junior-er sathe katha hochhilo .. Chhele ti anek rakamer nesha kore .. jar modhye sab theke barota bodhhay pahar ... Himalay .. Mone porlo anekdin aage, jakhan aamar bayes oder maton.. aamra tin bondhu hathat ekdin beriye porechhilum ekta durer pahar chorte ..

Kolkatay ashtomi shuru hobe ar ektu pore ... Aamar maa snan kore laalpaar shari pore anjali dite jaben thalay arghyo sajiye .. Kolkata kolkata tei thakbe bheeshon bhabe .. Ar takhan-o anekdure kono ekta charai-utrai-e bishram nite bosbe rucksack kandhe aamader fele aasa 21 bachhar bayes ... 'Are aapni tollygunge naki? .. aami to oidikei Kalighat ..'   

Ei alpo sharater rang-laga roddure aamader ki jeno hoye jaay .. na?

Dear Arijit,

          Tor mail ta ekkhuni pelum....amar phone ta majhkhane kharap hoye gechhilo...basically jole bhije bhije battery ta fule dhol hoye gechhilo..ar charge rakhte parchhilo na...ekhon abasya ekta jaali charger lagiye phone take pray thik kore felechhi....tui jabi jantam..kintu..seta hathat kore samne chole asbe erokom kore idea chhilo na...asole aami tor jabar date tao bhule gechhilum...ekbar aamio call korle hayto jabar aage ekbar dekha hoto....

ki janis to,aami nijeke niye majhe majhe eto byasto hoye pori je charpasher loker dike takano tao hoye othe na...ekhon bichhiri raam helpless lagchhe....dhut!!...aami bodh hay ei rakam-i...perfectly imperfect,sabkichhur jonyoi...

jaihok...ekhon aami aager theke anekta samle niyechhi..delhi khub help korechhe...oi 20 ta diner respite ta amar khub khub darkar chhilo..amra delhi thakar samay majhe tin bondhu mile haridwar-gangotri-gomukh-

tapoban sab ghure esechhi...haate poisa pray kichhui chhilo na..hathat kore thik kore beriye gechhilum..aami,panu ar rajarshi...tana 4+16=20 ghanta journey kore haridwar vaya gangotri pouchhechhilum..sekhan theke treck kore gomukh..ar gomukh ero pare aaro dangerous route tapoban..abasya aami tapoban-er churoy jete parini..sinusitis er jonyo majherastay swashkasto e atke gechhilum....

gomukh jabar rastay kichhu majar abhigyata hoyechhe...lifetime experience..truly..aamader sathe tin sadhur alap hoyechhilo..mahakal baba,hathi baba ar ramdas baba...tinjone tin te ostaad...basically oi gomukh obdi rasta thake treck karar maton..sekhan theke tapoban ta glacier cross kore jete hay..glacier shunlei mone jemon baraf dhaka sada kichhu ekta bhese othe,temon nay...baraf-er pahar..kintu upore mati,pathor chapa deoa..seta abar theke theke sore jay..dhose jay..mane je rasta ta diye upoer uthbi..ferar samay hayto dekhbi se rasta tai ar exist kare na...dekhle sotti bolchhi fete jay...ar bhabte paris oi sadhu gulo jara ekta ekahari ekta falahari..oisab er modhye diye tiring tiring korte korte chole jay..uff....aami jakhan khub keliye gechhilum namar samaye mahakal baba ekta joributi khete diyechhio,seta kheye aami tuktuk kore lafiye lafiye neme esechhilum..poer barite ese shunlam ota naki hashsih chhilo..bhab...ar ekta din to aami saradin emon charas kheyechhi babader adday bose je gunda(rajarshi) ar panu amay khujte beriyechhilo ratre....

tabe afsosh ektai ...amader karur camera chhilo na..tai chhobi tola haytni kichhui...

tora jekhan e thakbi sekhan thekeo basicaly hill station gulo kachhakachhi jaigai..jodi treck korte nao paris..at least noinitaal.mussourie..ar ja ja parbi ghure asis..himalay manush ke anek kichhu sekhay...seta na gele konodin-o bujhtam na..

ar hya..agray jas..tajmahal-e anekkhan bose assis..red fort-e ekbar dariye bhabis thik jekhane tui dariye aachhis ekdin oikhane,thik oikhanei akbar,jehangir era dariye asto jaoa surjo ke dekhto..kintu selam korto na..surjo oder seshbar kurnish kore dube jeto.....ekbar abasyai jama masjid-e jaas..ar jatoi kashto hok..tower tay uthe gota delhi take dekhis,ar bhabis ekdin eita gota ta karur samrajyo chhilo..ar etao ekbar bhabis raja ar samrat alaada jinis...king haoa kothin..kintu hayto possible...emperor haoa ta assol byapar...

ferar samaye abar aami train miss korechhilum..jedinkar train chhilo..ami tarparer din station-e pouchhoi..aami r panu....tarpar ekta sleeper class-e bathroom-er darjar pashe loker lathi,hagumutur modhye ghoste ghoste firechhi..se abar arek experience...

jaihok..sobmiliye bhaloi aachhi..guccho kaaj korechhi fire..tarpar last robbar sab submit kore fele tana tindin,abar ekdin gap ,abar tarparer din maal kheyechhi....ekhon GRE gatachhi....

aami samle nebo..nite habe..ar kichhui karar nei re...

jaihok...bhalo thakis..bhalo rakhis..ar hya...eta mone rakhis...it's not enough to be a good man,u must be a strong man also....samne anek juddho baki....asha kori nijer naam tar mane tui khub bhalo korei janis....

ar ki???mail koris....abasyai koris..khub bhalo lage....

..........................tata...habu.

On 6/27/07, Arijit Banerjee wrote:

dear habu,
porsu chole jachhi.tor sathe dekha karar khub ichhe chhilo kintu holo na,18 th obdi project tarpor kenakati,samajikata korte kortei samai sesh hoye gelo. robbar chhotomasir bari gechhilum,
toke anekbar try korlam jodi bikele meet kora jai,kintu tor phone off chhilo.
bhabte kharap i lage je jakhon tui churanto kharap somoy er madheye diye jachhis,tor pase khub ekta darate parlum na. natun kore balar kichhu nei, tabu boli u r a special person, truest human being i've ever seen. and thats the only reason u r my best friend.
aabar kabe asbo jani na,tui o hoito takhon anya kothao thakbi,jai hok dekha to aabar nischoy habe. aami giye natun no toke janiye debo, mail e contact rakhis. bhalo thakis, nijeke bodle felis na, u will become a star. sei card tar moto toke arekta kabita dedicate korlum..


" Today I step into a new world,
old memories to you I bid farewell.
Today I come out of my shell,
hidden pain and dismal thoughts farewell.
Today a fresh hope I have felt,
to you unfulfilled dreams farewell.
Today I am born new you can tell,
my past to you I bid farewell. "

Mithye.. mithye?

"Aaj theke sob mithye katha tomar holo,
Jemon amar sob kobitai Shankha Ghosher"     [Srijato]

Mithye kathar sathe aamar samparko ta besh jotil ebong kichhuta gopon .. orthat anekta abidho prem-er mato .. tabu, bodhhay ei ekta jinis aamar bna-haater kore angulti sasnehe dhore hnete esechhe gato pochhis ta bachhar, badhyo premikar mato .. ebong ekhan ei akaal bardhokye jakhan aaynay damra galfola ekta lumpener mukh ke nijer mukh bole mene nite hay, takhan-o abore-sabore sei mithyei aamar sarkari R chinho .. dekhe na nile thokben ..dekhe nileo ...

                                         Takhan aami nehat-i chhoto chhilum, baap-jytahar dhamak kheye half-pentul pore douratam dokan-bajare, amar Aranyadeb takhan kilawui-er belabhumite Diana-ke niye jabo jabo korchhen, parar morer lalu-bhulu takhan lyaj ar jib narate narate aamar pichhu pichhu .. hathat samner barir anjali pisi kan-ento kara hasiti hese jigges korten .."baptuuuuuuuuu ... kothaaaaaaaaaaay cholliiiiiiiiiii?'
 .. etake protibiplob bole kina jana nei , tobu sei nishpaap shoishobeo onake mithyeta na bole, sotti bolchhi partam na .. mudir dokan jaoar thakle boltam laundry, laundry hole hayto binay-er pan-biri-r dokan .. ebong seshmesh hayto konotitei na giye jetam chhotrish mile durer ek hindusthani dokane, jekhane ek takar jinis paoa jeto baro aanay .. ar bari fire school-er bag gochhate gochhate amlanbadone boltam ..'ei samay tay bujhle ma, baddo bhir ..' ..

sei baro aana ekhan fule fnepe kothay dariyechhe janina.. aami school,college,office anekkicchu periye ese pouchhechhi adhuniktamo mrityu upotyokay .. aamar sei aranyodeb ekhan kilawui-er belabhumi chhere ese binay-er dokane pan bandhen, Anjali pisima o tar jhargushti ke aami hawa kore diyechhi kobe se khabar Anandabazar-o rakhen na .. tobuo .. ei ekakitwer majheo aamay bhoriye rakhe sei mithye sobkichhu ..

Mithye ekta jiban.. tar sathe amar mithye mithye samprako ... tader niye chhotrish  hajar mithye kobita o galpo .. ar bodhkari tar chaiteo beshi kichhu mithye hoye jaoa swapno .. sotti-i to .. mithyegulo na thakle bakita kothay dnarabe bhabteo bhay kore .. na? athacho,ei ektao sotti hole ki aami khushi hotam?...

Janen .. aamake Nandini jakhan bole .. aami naki ekdin baro habo.. khub bhalo likhbo jakhan .. aamar lekha boi hoye berobe .. sei takhan o porbe aamar boi .. o seidintar jonye apekkha kore ... aami prathomei protibad kori , hese orai tarpor anek kicchu agdum bagdum bolte bolte dekhe feli sei ek-i swapno .. Aamar boi .. Aamar akshar .. Nandini-r aanguler dogay ese gole jachhe ghumer mato ..

Nandini majhpothe katha chhere chole jaay .. Paronto bikele e shaharer sajano footpath diye hnete hnete aami bari firi khub bhalo mone .. Aamar bna-haater kore aangul ta chhunye thake se .. Mithye ..

Ekti bichhinnotabadi sanglaap ...

Eta 2009 saal .. Aamar bari kolkatay .. Dumdum-er oidiktay .. aamar barir samne ekta khub purono jamrul gachh aachhe.. aage anek gulo chhilo..ekhon eke eke morte morte ektai achhe .. oi sadakaku der uthoner uporei gachh ta .. baba bolen baba jakhan chhoto chhilen.. takhan naki oi gachhe uthten.. aami chhotoobelay khub bhitu chhilum.. ebong hya..bhalo chheleo.. aamar oi gachh tar sathe bandhutto sudhu aamar ekti aswastikar thikana-chinhe ... aamar parar naam jamrultala ...

Aamader ekta khelar maath-o chhilo...Santra-paray .. majar katha holo oi paray ekjon-o santra thake na .. ar ekta club chhilo..amader kayekjoner toiree kara.. Prabaho.. naamta kar matha theke beriyechhilo ei bardhokye mone pare na.. tobe eta sure je tar durodrishti asamnayo chhilo.. bingsho shotabdi sesh habar sathe sathe je kata jinish e prithibi theke uthe jaay tar modhye 'Prabaho' chhilo anyotamo .. kono ek barshar bikele mathe katogulo lok ese khunti punte diye chole jaay .. tarao ar fereni mathe.. amrao na .. Prabaho apatato stabdho hoye parer prajanmer dike asahay drishti chhunre dey bikelguloy.. er theke beshi bodhhay tar kicchu deoar chhilo na konodin-i ...

Ei bhabei bodhhay aamader chhotobela gulo ekta ekta purono jolchhobi hoye jaay aamader ajante .. amader britto gulo ektu ektu kore chhoriye pore.. aamra jara baro hote shikhe gechhi khub taratrai ..tarao shikor kete feli ekdin ar bhabi ..'ei to besh urchhi ..na?' ..... na ..eta oi aabege chobano bhjije biscuit nay .. eta oi aadi akrittim ekakitwo .. eta oi ekta paranto bikel.. aami eka ekta barite ba park-er bench-e ..nijei nijer kandhe haat rekhe bolchhi .. 'cho..sondhe hoyechhe.. bari fera jak ebar ' ...

Karon.. eta oi santra-parar churi hoye jawa math na.. eta Salisbury.. eta sujog khojar desh .. ar kicchui khuje na pawar ba konokicchhui khujte na chawar desh .. ekahne bikel hay rate.. raat hoy sakale . ar sakal gulo lajjay ar mukh tule takay na surjer dike .. Ekhane sob kicchui bhalo, sundor, kothao etotuku jeno moila nei .. aami-o roj hantte hantte sankuchito hoye jai.. bodhhay ei ektu nongra kore dilam.. agochhalo kore dilam prithibir brihattamo show-piece take ... lajja hay . bishwash korun.. hay .. oi je bollam na.. taratari baro hote bhalo hote shikhechhilum.. ar tar fnake kakhan je roddur bishti jal hawar bhasha bhule gechhi bujhte deyni keu ... Majhrate jakhan ese bosi aamar ghore .. ardhek prithibi dur theke bheshe aase bondhu der gala ... ektu aabchha .. ektu aspashto .. ar anekta anyarakam....

'Kire kemon mosti hochhe?' .. 'Ektao blonde tulli?' ... 'Kemon lagchhe bol tor swapner desh?' ....

Aamader ekta anko chhilo class five-er gonit boi-te .. sabbai parto.. oi je ekta choubachhay duto kol aachhe..ekta diye 10 minute-e choubachha puro bhorti hay ..arekta diye 5 minute-e bhorti choubachha khali hoye jay... duto eksathe chalale katokkhone bhorti hobe choubachha ta?..

Ektu ultoplata bollam na number gulo? .. Na Mahoday..

Welcome to America !!!....

Mukhomukhi .. Adhikarheen ..

"Sob nei mlan kore shudhu aachhe ekjon,

ar..

Mukhomukhi.. Adhikarheen seo aachhe" ..

Amar jakhan bayashta motamuti bardhokyer kachhakachhi .. banprastha-i jakhan ekmatro bikalpo,basanto-batash noy .. eta sei takhankar galpo.. kono ek bikhyato lok bole gechhilen.. 'sob golper ekta shuru..ekta sesh ar ekta majhkhan thake .. not necessarily in order" .. ei galpotar ekta shuru chhilo ... ekebare domrano-mochrano ekta sesh aami dekhechhi .. majhkhan ta ekdin asbe,ei ashay ekhon likhe rakhchhi sei itihaas ..

Nandinir sathe aamar sesh dekha tar katha bhule gechhi aami.. shudhu eta mone achhe sedin gobhir ratre ki bolte cheyechhilum oke....

"Hayto, erpor khub sabdhane pa felte felte amra atikrom kore jabo ek ek ta alokbarsho .. nayto kono achena,abujh rastay neme aasbe paapmugdho bikel amader ajante .. Nandin... Amra nishan uriye diyni ardhek jiboner simante.. Tai mrityu khuje nik amar ashorirmon bhalobasa .. rupkathara konodin-i ar gaan geye uthbe na tor thont chhuye .." ..

Hya ekta ashchorjo raat chhilo seta .. amar ghar theke alpo mukh ber kore aami anekdin por dekhchhi aakash ta aalo aalo seje aache.. karur gala pachhi na kothao theke.. jeno unmukh noishbdo chumbon chaichhe .. aami bhabchhilum ei byapartake ekta kobitay ankle kemon daray .. hathat dekhi anek dur theke sobuj salwar .. se aaschhe .. Nandini aaschhe ... aamar mone holo jeno o ekkhuni ese dnarabe samne .. or nirjon chokh ekbar takabe .. aamar gale satdiner na kamano dari ..ar asahya prasab-jantronar pore tori haoa du tinte choritro ... hayto ekbar aamra hawa-y uriye debo anushashon .. ar e shahare neme aasbe abikol himanko ..

'Jhoupatar fnake fnake jhore porchhe kobitara ..

Ar aamar mrito rajdhani te neme aschhe arekta aschorjo ratri' ....

Na Nandini aseni .. Athoba eleo aami thik janina .. khub byasto chhilum.. bishwash korun.. Hayto esechhilo .. Hayto oi gharei .. anushashon tuchho kore amay jigges korechhilo ki kichhu?.. shunte paini .. sotii paini .. Nirjon chokh chumbon cheyechhilo ki ekta? .. Rattire khub brishti porechhilo ki baire sedin??.. janina ... janina .. aami sotti khub byasto chilum .. sei din .. sei raat .. Nandin er jonyoi ekta kobita .. Nandin esechhilo .. hayto .. kintu ..bishwash korun..sei muhurte khatar theke ekbar chokh tulle.. sei je gunjan ta.. sei gunjan ta ekdom hariye jeto .. oi kobita ta toiree hoto na ar konodin... Na hole ..

Ta chhara... Nandini-der janyo lekha kobitar theke to Nandini ra konodin-i baro nay ..na????